Tuesday, October 31, 2006

The End of the world as we know it

Well, Cody between a sweet plea like that and Mystic popping up *goggles* I couldn't leave well enough alone.

Happy Halloween everyone.

I'm only stopping in to drop a bomb (no pun intended) and then I'll elaborate later, because I have to go home and take care of Beloved, who is ill.


I'm changing my second major to Political Science and I'm going to study foreign relations in Kuwait during intercession (the break between first and second semester) in JAnuary. 10 days there. I am so excited.

Feedback? Thnk I'm nuts?

love you all

happy haunting


Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Suddenly I See

Hello friends. I'm back. Its happening more and more, almost scary, isn't it?

I suppose I could give you a more full life update, if that weren't boring. Or I could tell you what's on my mind since elections are three weeks away [and being in a state that's hotly contested things here are interesting. Our senatorial people were on "Meet the Press" even] but thats rather boring, and predictable too.

So we'll be frivilous.

First. I have an eye infection. Similar to the one I had last year (around this time if I remember correctly, I'll have to look.) My corneas are inflamed and infected because I wear my contacts more than 10 hours a day and my eyes aren't getting any oxygen. Lucky me. So I am stuck in my loser glasses (again) until my eyes heal. I went to the eye doctor for a re-evaluation today and my left eye has healed but my right eye requires more and stronger meds to heal. Hooray. But I suppose I can suck it up. He says if I don't get to taking better care of my eyes he'll take my contacts away for good because I'll end up scarring my eyes.

I was a little frightened though, when I went in today. I shoudl say, the follow up visit is a result of me discovering I have an eye infection when I went in to get my contact perscription updated. The girl behind the counter today (medical assistant, receptionsit, whatever PC word she is) looks at me -looks directly at me - and says to me "are you wearng contacts" Now, I don't know how many of you have seen pictures of me in my glasses - I don't post them often because I hate them - they are seriously campy, heavy framed eyesglasses. They look a lot like this -

There is no possible way any sane person could mistake my glasses for anything but a pair of glasses sitting plainly across my nose and obscuring your view of the rest of my face. And so I say to her, "I'm sorry, what did you say?"

And she asks again if I am wearing contacts. Now before you go defending her, saying my glasses are cool in a "linkin park" kinda way and I might be wearing fakes...they's almost 1/4" thick, you can clearly see they are real glasses, not fakes, and even were they fakes she works for an eye doctor and should be able to tell the difference from less than a foot away. Heck, I can! Anyway. So I tell her no, I do not have my contacts in and refrain from pointing out that if I ever get to th point I require both glasses and contacts to see I a) won't be legal to drive- anywhere and b) will give up and spend my days with a sweet seeing eye dog and allow beloved to cut my meat for me....

SO she gives me a hateful look and informs me that this is a follow up appointment to my contact lens appointment and we are *always* supposed to wear our contacts when we come to our eye appointment. She looks at my chart. She looks back at me and asks me why I didn't wear them. I point out I have an appointment as a follow up because we discovered last time I had an eye infection. She gives me a look that plainly says "so......" and I point out that the eye doctor was orudent enough to tell me not to wear my contacts, which are infected with eye harming bacteria, because it would make my condition worse. You know what she says?

"Oh, well, I guess that makes sense...."

And this is the person who is going to be aiming a large machine full of compressed air ant my eyes to check their pressure when I have my glaucoma test. I wonder to myself if *she* can read the numbers on the color blind chart....

So you know, I cottoned through okay....

Anyway...so we're allowed to dress up for Halloween at work. I've decided I want to be a cheerleader. How fun is that? And totally not my personality. Totally. Although I'm starting to sound like one aren't I? Haha...I think it will be a grand joke to get to wear a skirt to work. And me looking so delightfully preppy and perky will be perfect, I think.

I've acquired two new CDs in the last few days - Pussycat Dolls "PCD" and Justin Timberlake "Futuresex/Lovesounds" neither are terribly bad. Although I am *addicted* to Hinder's "Lips of an Angel" its a lovely song...well, not a cherrful message, but I am a sucker for the guitar and the vocals, I love their lead singer, so I really can't whine too much, can I? Its a nice sentiment.

Alright, I won't overwhelm you with too much at once, I know this is nearly an overdose of my personality...so...

Love you all

Monday, October 16, 2006

You can't help the hate that it brings

A little tidbit I got in the email from Rogue. Made me laugh, thought I would pass it on...

Ps- has anyone heard fo frogs in salad bags? I'm seriously never eating my greens again...sheesh....

9 Things I Hate About Everyone

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where mywatch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask wherethe toilet is?

2 People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for theT.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channelmanually.

3 When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damnright! What good is cake if you can't eat it?

4 When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Whythe hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Whoand where are they? Gonna Kick their asses!

5 When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I paid$12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.

6 People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved!' Which is it? If it's new, then therehas never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must havebeen something before it, couldn't be new.

8 When people say "life is short". What the hell?? Life is the longest damnthing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer?

9 When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?


Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Here's hoping I will not drown

Well, school really has kicked me into the 21st century. I broke down and bought an MP3 player off of Rogue's boyfriend. I love having it at school. In honor of my newfound coolness, here's the old Ipod fortune teller from Flashy's old blog.

1. What do you think of me?“Toxicity” System of a Down

“When I became the sunI shone life into the mans heartsWhen I became the sunI shone life into the mans hearts”

Nice, yeah?

2. Will I have a happy life?
“If you could only see” Tonic
Seems the road less traveledShows happiness unraveledAnd you got to take a little dirtTo keep what you loveThats what you gotta do

I think that says I know what to do to be happy.

3. What do My friends really think about me?
“Lola” The Kinks

Well Im not dumb but I cant understandWhy she walked like a woman and talked like a man


4. What does my significant other think of me?
“New Thing Now” Shawn Colvin

Sometimes I see the half and not the wholeSometimes I see the face and not the soulSometimes I think this place has no partFor anyone who ever had a heart

Um? I’m not sure I like that

How about….

“This is your new thing nowAnd it feels so good to doubt youI could almost live without youBut not quite”

Not much better, though

5. Do people secretly lust after me?

“Praise You” Fatboy Slim

I think that’s a yes.

6. How can I make myself happy?
“Simple Things” Usher

“It's the simple things in life we forgetYou hear her talkin' but don't hear what she saidWhy do you make something so easy so complicatedSearching for what's right in front of your faceBut you can't see it”

I think that’s an obvious one too.

7. What should I do with my life?
“Swan Dive” Ani DiFranco

I don’t like the connotations of this one either. Not happy at all…

“i've got a lack of inhibitioni've got a loss of perspectivei've had a little bit to drinkand it's making me thinkthat i can jump ship and swimthat the ocean will hold methat there's got to be morethan this boat i'm in”

8. Why must life be so painful?
“Tiptoeing through the used condomsStrewn on the piersOff the west side highwaySunset behind the skyline of jerseyWalking towards the waterWith a fetus holding court in my gutMy body highjackedMy tits swollen and soreThe river has more colors at sunset Than my sock drawer ever dreamed ofI could wake up screaming sometimesBut I don'tI could step off the end of this pier but I got shit to doAnd I've an appointment on tuesdayTo shed uninvited blood and tissueI'll miss you I say To the river to the waterTo the son or daughter I thought better ofI could fall in love With jersey at sunsetBut I leave the view to the ratsAnd tiptoe back”

Because life is pain and obligation?

9. What advice can you give me?

“Asking too much” Ani Difranco

“I want somebody who can hold my interesthold it and never let it fallsomeone who can flatten me with a kissthat hits like a fistor a sentence, that stops me like a brick wallbecause if you hear me talkinglisten to what I'm not sayingif you hear me playing guitarlisten to what I'm not playingand don't ask me to put wordsto all the spaces between notes”

Wow. Well ,there’s some romance advice for you.

10. What do you think true happiness is?

“Didn’t Cha Know” Erikah Badu

“Time to save the worldWhere in the world is all the timeSo many things I still don't knowSo many times I've changed my mindGuess I was born to make mistakesBut I ain't scared to take the weightSo when I stumble off the pathI know my heart will guide me back”

Hm. Again.

11. Will I die happy?

“Hope There’s Someone” Anthony and the Johnsons

“Hope there's someone who'll take care of meWhen I die, Will I go?Hope there's someone who'll set my heart freeNice to hold when I'm tiredThere's a ghost on the 'rizonWhen I go to bedHow can I fall asleep at nightHow will I rest my head?Oh I'm scared of the middle placeBetween light and nowhereI don't want to be the oneLeft in there, left in thereThere's a man on the 'rizonWish that I'd go to bedIf I fall to his feet tonightWill allow rest my head?So here's hoping I will not drownOr paralyze in lightAnd godsend I don't want to goTo the seal's watershedHope there's someone who'll take care of meWhen I die, Will I go?Hope there's someone who'll set my heart freeNice to hold when I'm tired”

Now that’s damn cheery. I think it’s a no.

Well ,what do you think loves?

And two posts in a month? *gasps*


Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Honey Why You Calling So Late?

Look! I'm here!

I've not dropped off the face of the earth, I've just been a vacation of sorts, I guess you could call it.

The good news is I am still making all A's in my classes and am coming along quite nicely...the bad news is i have hardly a moment to myself. But I'm getting the hang of it.

There are some interesting developments, and news I suppose. First, I've been promoted at work. Bet you didn't know there was an upper eschelon of waitresses, did you? I am now what we call a "certified trainer" which means they give me the new people and let me train them. Its a pretty big deal since the company policy is you have to generally be there a year before you're allowed, and I've not been there a year. Either way, its nice. And when I train I make more than my measley $2.15 an hour.

Work keeps me busy. Life at work has become less stressful than school, but more interesting as time passes. I have an admierer...her name is Daffy [for her big daffy eyes] Rogue gives me hell to know end about her. I usually retort somethign to the effect that she has girls lined up around the block for her. When I've got that propblem to she can make fun of me then....goodness.

Yes, Rogue and I are still on happy, nice terms. She's a sweet girl. I think she's gotten the idea of joining the military for scholarship moeny out of her head - which is good, I'd have freaked out had she gone. She's not even a war supporter, she just wants the money. But she is getting stressed thinking about college. I feel for the poor girl. I've been attending her vollyball games, its good fun. I also met her mom, who seems to like me despite all my flaws, which i appreciate. Then again, she doesnt know I like girls yet, either, we're holding off on that one until Rogue gets all of her female stalkers under control....

Beloved and I are blissful still, which is good. Our 5 year anniversary is coming up in November and I am very much looking forward to running away with her for the weekend.

In other announcements NaNoWriMo is coming up, and I think its a good idea to remind everyone, since we had so many winners, and fabulous writers, in our group. I've already got my story idea picked out, now all I have to do is find time to write...haha. Lots of midnight write ins for me, I think.

At the top of my current playlist:

1. Lips of an Angel, Hinder
2. London Bridge, Fergie [bite me]
3. Napoleon, Ani Difranco
4. My Buttons, PCD feat. Snoop [again, bite me]
5. Como Estas, T-Pain

Right, so thats me in a nutshell.

I miss you all so much. I am reading, I've just not the time to comment.